Hey... sorry I haven't posted anything in a while. I wish I could say my 2024 was going good but honestly the past few days have been quite emotional for me.

Just the idea that my future of landing a career in animation is even more uncertain now than it ever was fills me with such hopelessness. I've spent the past week sending out hundreds of job applications and emails to all sorts of roles in and outside the industry and haven't had many chances to slow down and take a breath.

I woke up every morning with a crushing sense of dread that I'm a failure and that I will probably never land a job at an animation studio... and even if I do get it, what's the chance that it will be permanent? I'll probably just be back to looking for another job.

It's been my dream since high school... and yet the crushing reality is that it's just not sustainable at all. Not with how many more jobs are leaving LA and how animators are treated. I've been told by several people I should seriously consider studying for a second career... but I have no clue what for. Many suggested tech, but I hear that field isn't doing too well either, and I might have to cross paths with some of the more exploitative tech that's causing most of these problems for us in the first place.

I had plans for later this year... to start working on a comic based on an idea I've had since college... I wanted to go back to making Power Metal Mondays, to get more storyboard work done, get back to practicing Cinema 4D... but that had to be put on hold.

I'm sorry for bumming everyone out. I know it's hard for everyone right now, including some of my fellow classmates I got in contact with.

I just want things to get better. For all of us...